My house today..........

Is kind of like a jail cell. When I get home after not going to Lexi's :( I can't watch TV I can't go on my laptop, I can't go anywhere. I can only go in my pool, in my yard, or inside. I really wanted to go to Lexi's. It's really annoying how parents at the drop of a hat just because they are overreacting about something won't let you go to a party that you really wanted to go to. And it really annoys me that they can do this whenever they want because they are our rides to go everywhere. That was this morning. Now I am in a jail cell at school. All I can do is take my exams then go back into Mrs. Hartt's room to study, get lunch bring it back to this room. Then after lunch/studying, we take the History exam. After that we come right back here, and wait until we go home. What a fantastically fun day!!! And I'm not sure who knows of this blog, so comment everybody who reads this so I know. I just want to know who knows it so I can see if I trust that particular person. Well Kate, Dan, Seb, Zee, I know I can trust. But otherwise COMMENT!!! hehe. I really should be studying for the history, but I just can't make myself pick up the stupid review sheets and read them. Haha. My stomach just growled really loudly. I am so hungry, but Mr. Fitz won't let us go to lunch because, "The line is too long". Arg. It just growled again. Alex was cracking his knuckles, and then Mr. Fitz said, "Don't do that, it's bad for your hands, you'll get arthritis" and then I asked, "Didn't somebody prove that it doesn't cause arthritis?" and he was like, "No, well maybe someone thinks that." I'm back from getting lunch. YAY!!! I am so hungry, but the pasta tastes like vegetables somehow. But I have yogurt with granola and chocolate pudding so I'll be full by the time I'm finished. I really have to study now. Remember to comment!!

Slam.......

As my mom comes in the room. Slamming the door behind her, almost making the door come off it's hinges. She just got an email from Mr. Cissel explaining that we will have in-school suspension tomorrow. And my mom just came in saying that I can't go to Nike Tennis Camp with you Kate. I'm really sorry. I really wanted to go. Maybe she just made a rash decision and will change her mind, I hope so. Going to the beach was such a stupid decision. Well actually, I think it wasn't that stupid. I just think all of the authority figures are overreacting It seems like the authority figures in our lives are getting more uptight about everything. And it seems they are getting more uptight as we get older, which seems really stupid. God I fucking hate my mom, I wanted to go to Nike Tennis Camp SO badly, just to get away from her for a week. Because I will be spending the rest of the summer with her. And no dad, because he has to work during the summer. I just wish parents, for once, could be in our shoes for a day, and see how our lives were. And I don't know if you've ever brought that up with your parents, but whenever I do they always say, "I was a kid once too you know. I know how everything goes." and I don't say this out loud, but in my head I'm thinking, "No it's much different than when you were kid's. There's much more to worry about now. Especially when you have horrible parents." And my mom said some really mean stuff to me, so know I can't read my study guide for history because the ink smeared, because I cried so much on it. I just wish my parents and I could switch lives, just for today, to re-do it. So I could blow up at them, and not let them do what they were so hoping to do during the summer (Nike Tennis Camp), and be able to just take all the anger from my life out on my child. That is what my mom does. My parents have been getting in alot of fights now-a-days. And whenever my mom is mad at my dad for something, she takes all of her anger out on me, by unfairly getting mad at me for anything and everything I do. I am in my dining room right now, and my mom has been shouting at me for like 10 straight minutes now, from the kitchen, and I can't concentrate on studying. I am probably going to fail History and Math tomorrow. Which is not good because then my parents will be furious when I come home with all my friends, for my party after exam return day. I have to go because my mom stopped shouting, and so I probably have about another five minutes before she starts again, so I have to use that time wisely. Comment Please.

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COMMENTS!!!

And comment on that last one. Don't comment on this one. Comment on feelings. pweeeez :)

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Feelings?

I really need summer to come. Today, the exam was pretty easy. The essay took a long time, but I still think I did fairly well on it. So after that, Denay, Alex, and I were waiting for Kate to come back from printing out her essay for the exam, we had to talk to Mr. Cissel, and Mr. Fitz, about the beach thing. And so we got probation for next year for the first semester, meaning if we go off campus without permission during the first semester of school, then we get suspended. We lost our frees for the first month of school next year, and we have an in school suspension tomorrow. But it doesn't go on our permanent record so that's good. Because all of us are trying to get into boarding school. Well they are all trying to get into Choate, but I am trying to get into Loomis Chaffee. And Loomis Chaffee girls hockey is really good. They were undefeated this year. And they beat Choate. So ha, to all you Choate lovers!!! And then after that, Alex had to leave, Denay, Kate, and I went to the cafeteria for lunch. Connor, Chris, Avery, Isabel, and Isabelle were there. And they said that they were ordering pizza, and then like all of them said, "You can't have any though," "except for Denay," Connor added. And so I was like, "Umm okayyyy." Oh and Lucy was there too. And so I went over to get some pasta, and Kate came too, and she looked at the time, and said, "OMG I have to go study for Mandarin" so she was about to run off, when Mr. Fitz came, and talked to us for what seemed like forever about our consequences. And then Kate had to go study. So I got my pasta and some pudding, and sat down. Then like 2 minutes after that everybody got up to go get the pizza Connor had ordered. And Denay said, "I think they are going to the front lawn" so the two of us went there, but they weren't there. Then we saw all the other people, and they didn't know where Connor and the other people who were getting the pizza had gone. And they were outside under the lower school walkway thing. And when we went over there Isabel said that they were about to read Kate's diary blog, and Avery was like NO!! NO I didn't. And then Isabel said, "Well Chris wanted to, but Avery said no" and so I guess they didn't. But they did have Kate's laptop so I guess they thought they could find it, and read it. And I said, "Don't you guys, seriously. That's unfair." So they were like, "NO we didn't read it" and then Mr. Fitz came, and said go back to the forum, so we went back. And then Mr. Meyer came in after a while, and blew up at us, about buying pizza. Chris wouldn't stop talking stupidly, so he made Mr. Meyer even madder. And so he shouted at us, like really shouted at us to go sit in the forum, but now I am in that chair looking down the hall towards the other lockers, at one end of the common room, right by the table. Which is where my dice got squished. And I worked hard on that. HUMPH!!! So now I'm just waiting until 2:40 to go home. On the van.

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Hi, I'm Hank Hill, And I'm Afraid Of Propane

I am watching King Of The Hill. And he is afraid of propane because in the last episode he got in an explosion, because a propane tank exploded. And he's afraid to grill and stuff. Enough on that subject. Kate, Alex, Denay, and I went to the beach today. We went through that door in the fence right by the lower school science room. And we ran through that persons yard to the street. It was kind of trespassing but I don't think anyone cared. Then we were walking along the street down to the Burying Hill Beach, (I think that's what it's called). And when we were walking down the street I was freaked out every time a car came because it would be a teacher. But no teacher saw us and we made it to the entrance of the beach. And then we heard a low teacher - sounding voice. And Denay and I were about to run to the beach. But then Alex said it was just Edward. And then we started walking again. So we got there, and I got my toes wet, hehe, and then we went on the umm, I forget what it's called. The wooden thing that goes out into part of the ocean. So we were walking out to the end of the whatever it's called, and Denay was taking a really long time because she was scared of falling. And so we were sitting at the end of whatever it's called, and telling kind of not secretive but still a tad secretive secrets. And then someone said Denay. We looked over and it was Mr. Cissel. My stomach dropped like out of my butt, I know I've used that expression before but I like it. And so we got up really quickly and tried to run back but didn't want to, and couldn't because it was kind of slimy, and seaweedy, so we couldn't run or we would slip. And fall into the cold ocean. Which would be bad. So when we got to the shore, and to Mr. Cissel, he said all the usual stuff about doing something wrong. He also said that someone told him that someone saw us and told him that we were going to the beach. Which means someone ratted us out. ARG. It better not have been a kid. But then he drove us back to the school and said, "This is not the end. Go home, and tell your parents, and I will follow up." So I got home, and my mom was getting my brother so I didn't bother calling her up to tell her. But my dad called and I told him and he said, "Well that's stupid. Why did Mr. Cissel get so mad? Don't worry about it Chlo." So that's good, because I didn't need my parents mad at me when I was going to ask them if I could go to Lexi's party , which sounds really fun. It's weird though, because I am never invited to any parties during the beginning or middle of the year. But at the end of the year, I get invited to a ton of them. HAHA. FUN FUN FUN!! The Exams today didn't seem hard at all to me. Except the questions on the science exam about the passive transport with red blood cells. I had no idea. I just put down random crap. But I think I did a good job other than that. I have to study for English. Kate post!! And EVERYBODY COMMENT!! Pwetty pweez. hehe. As lyall would say. Avery and Kate know what I'm talking about. haha.

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Not very thought out Ding-Dong-Ditch.......

Today has been horribly boring the say the most. All I did was study. And take like a 10 minute swim. But that's it. And then my neighbor and her friends, the people who almost took my head off throwing a swing at me, kept ringing my doorbell, and I saw them do it every single time. And so after they had come back to ring it like 4 times. I opened the door, and sat by it. And this one girl came up, and she saw I was sitting there. And she looked really surprised. And she said in a really bad lying voice, "Ohh, I was just coming over to see if, ummmmm, you wanted to come over." And I said, "No, I'm studying for exams, sorry." and then she like ran off. It was funny. I really wish I could've just walked to the Post Road, where like Blockbuster is, and Munson's chocolate. And I had like $100.00. And I could spend it freely. And if there was some good clothes stores, close to there, which there aren't, but if they like teleported there or something. That would be cool. My parents fought SO much today. And it sounded like it was about nothing. They were just shouting at each other about how they were bad spouses. Today I genuinely hated my mom. She kept blowing up at me for nothing. She seems so nice on the outside, but then when she gets mad she gets mad at everybody even if they have nothing to do with it. And she also did something that I can't say. But it was really weird, and it made me feel really awkward. But my dad was really nice to me today for some reason. I really have to study, so that is the end of the post. Yipeee. And you can comment now. So COMMENT!!

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Couch Drool

I feel asleep on my couch while I was talking to my brother on the phone. He is coming home in like two days. And even though sometimes he can be evil, he is still my brother and I love him. And when I fell asleep I fell asleep face down, and with my mouth open, so I drooled. HEHE. But we had like 30 people over today for some reason. Maybe it was a Memorial Day party or something, but it was really tiring. I got to see my old friend Turner again, and I had tons of fun. We stayed in my pool for like 5 hours straight. And we stole a watermelon that was supposed to be dessert, dropped it on the driveway which cracked it in half, and then ate it. But we couldn't let my parents find out that we stole it, so we had to hide the evidence in the garbage outside. And then we ran around for a while trying to avoid Turner's mom because she didn't want to go home. I'm happy for Kate. They look really good together. I wish someone liked me. W/E. I'll be too occupied over the summer to get sad, so to bad sadness, you won't get me this time, MUAHAHAHA. And I am really tired now because I fell asleep once before. And my mom is being unreasonable because she is drunk, so I have to not get her mad and go to bed. and COMMENT!! No one ever actually comments. It annoys me SO much.

Boogeyman (Ad-on)

This to add on about what my dad and I were talking about at the diner. I said to him, "Do you think mom got alot more stressed since she got cancer?", and he nodded while saying yes, and he said, "You know how she said, 'since I got cancer, you're going to get cancer' (which she did say to me), she just said that because she was so worried about getting cancer again, see my mom (meaning my dad's mom) got brain cancer, which goes down generations" and I asked, "Do you think I would've liked her?" (she died before I was born), and my dad said, "Yah, she was great" and then he looked like he was about to cry, because he never really talks about her, and I think he really misses her. And I felt really bad for him. So that was my ad-on.

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Boogeyman

So, I did end up on going to Lexi's party, which in the long run might have been a mistake. I went to Kate's house first. We tried to find a swimsuit for me, because my mom wasn't picking up the phone so she couldn't bring my bikini. So I ended up wearing Em's. Which fit me pretty well. Then Kate and I went down to Kate's river, and Em stayed up at the house, on her laptop or something. When I got the bikini I was wearing wet, it got really baggy, and it would probably fall off if I swam in it at the party. So we went back up, and I had to wear Em's 1 piece. ARG. I really wanted to wear my bikini. But whatever. So we ended up getting there at around 8:00. But we were fashionably late, even though we were an hour late. When we got there everybody was in the hot tub or around it at least, and Denay started chasing me around saying, "Take it off", right after I stared taking off my shorts, because I had my swimsuit under my clothes. And so then we got in and everybody was talking and everything. And then after a while everybody got out because there was food on the table, but like Me, Allison, Kate, and Em, stayed in the hot tub because Em, Kate, and I had eaten a bowl of popcorn before we came, and apparently so had Allison. So then everybody came back and was in the hot tub for like 5 more minutes, and then Connor and Dan, started playing soccer. By that time I was out of the hot tub and getting twizzlers and a brownie, and Connor kicked it too high so it came onto the porch type thingy, right to me. And so I kicked it back, but it hit the string holding up the volleyball net, which I think snapped it, and so the net fell down. Ooops hehe. So then I went down and, Will and Isabel were attempting to fix it. But they couldn't, so James just rolled it up and put it to the side somewhere. So then a ton of people started playing soccer including me. And Connor kept kicking the ball over to the hot tub, and it was like an inch away from hitting Lucy like every single time. But it didn't. Then Em showed up all the boys with her amazing soccer skills. And after that, we went back in the hot tub for a little bit, and I was showering talking to Isabel. And then everybody had left to go downstairs. And when I went down there I saw that they were watching something freaky, so I just stood in the doorway, and Allison was standing there too. And I heard scary music come on, so I said to her, "Do you want to watch this, because I don't" and she said, "Yah let's go back upstairs". And then Mrs. Keuhner, (I think that's how you spell it) somehow knew I was scared of scary movies, and knew that I saw the Ring and it freaked me out. She must get the low-down from Lexi. I love Mrs. Keuhner, she is the coolest mom ever. Back to the party though. The only reason Allison didn't want to watch it was because Alec (Dunn, not Bakes. Bakes wasn't there) was down there and she didn't want him trying to make a move on her. So we sat in the hot tub, and then I think Em came, and then Henry came. And then like the rest of the FCDS guys. Excpet Alex Broadbent, because he had his arm around Kate. Oooooo. HAHA. Kate was like huddled up against him the whole movie, and he had his arm around her the whole movie, even though this was like the second time they had met. HAHA. So then, everybody went back downstairs, and I tried to watch a little bit of it. And so I went in and sat down on the couch, between Kate, and Julian. And I had a blanket, which was good because I needed to cover my face if a scary part came up. And so in the movie, it was The Boogeyman by the way, this guy was walking around and all these kids started attacking him, and then the Boogeyman did too. And it was really freaky, because it had really freaky music. So I ran out, and a ton of other people did too. We first went to the hot tub and pool, then we went back downstairs to the dojo thing. And Connor said, "Who would win if we had a fight between FCDS and GFA" And all the guys started fighting, which was really stupid. And then we wanted to play truth or dare, but no one would shut up, so we couldn't play. Then alot more people came out, so I think the only people left were Kate and Broadbent, and Julian and Kenzie. Julian had his arm around Kenzie, and Broadbent had his arm around Kate. How cute. HEHE. So then everybody went back upstairs, and everybody was pushing each other into the pool. But then I sat down with Dan, Denay, James, and Taylor. Then Dan had to go see if his ride left without him. Then Jake, Denay, Taylor, and I wanted to go watch a happy movie, but we didn't want everyone to come down with us, so we went like one by one. Then we went downstairs, and we saw what a mess, the movie theater was, and we felt really bad, so we cleaned it up. Denay and I cleaned up the movie theater, and James and Taylor cleaned up the Dojo. It's Denay and My hobby. HEHE. Then Lexi came down and saw that we cleaned it up, and said, "OMG thankyou SO much you guys" Then Taylor had to go see if her ride had left, so James Denay and I watched Stomp The Yard. And Denay put her legs on James, and laid down. And I really wish I had a guy friend that I could do that with. Like feel really comfortable around and he would think of me as a a sister, and I would think of him of him as a brother, and we would like tell each other everything, and I'm not like that with anyone. But I guess it just takes time. ARG. Then I had to go upstairs to see if Kate had left me. But she hadn't and I went on like that circular raft in the pool with her and Chris, and it was so nice because we were lying down and looking up at the sky, and it was really beautiful, and because there were a ton of stars and the moon was really big and beautiful. Then after that we were just talking then Mr. Pitt came and we had to leave. And I was getting so freaked out by the movie in the car, because I have a big closet in my room, and in the movie the Boogeyman comes out of closets. AKKK. And when I saw The Ring, I had nightmares for like 2 years, I swear. So Kate noticed that I was shaking in the car, and it was because I was really freaked out. And then she said, "Ohh Chloe, don't worry about it. Just think about the actors doing a scary scene and then going to get a sandwich with some friends." Which made me laugh and feel better. Then I remembered that I had left my laptop and backpack at Kate's house. And Mr. Pitt was driving me home and I didn't want to ask him to take me to their house, and then back to my house. But he heard me, and said, "Ohh don't worry we can bring them over tomorrow" So I said thanks, and then we got to our house, and I said my pleasantries and they left. And then I told my parents that if they heard me wake up screaming it was just because I had watched a scary movie. And last night I did have a scary dream, but I can't remember it. I just remember waking up really sweaty and the covers were off me. Which freaked me out. But I didn't get eaten by the Boogeyman. HAHA. So when I got up today my dad and I went to the Sherwood Diner. And we never really have anything to talk about except like trivial stuff. But I was hungry for some good chocolate chip pancakes. And on the way back we stopped by Kate's house because I know that they never have their door unlocked so I picked up my backpack and laptop, and Mr. Pitt saw me and said, "Good morning Chloe." And then when he saw me leaving he said, "Have a nice weekend." So now I am writing this post, which hopefully I will be able to restrain from writing anymore because I REALLY need to study. WOW this was a big tirade (vocab word, hehe).

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Evil Glares Ad-on

Also. On the way home, Katie Segelstein, Sarah Hafey, Zee and I were sticking our heads out the window and we got completely dry, well my bra didn't but that's okay. HEHE. And Sarah Hafey spat out the window and it hit me in the face, and it hit her in the face too, because she spat forward into the wind, when we were going like 70 MPH down the highway. Good times. Good times. And then we were waving at people to try and get people to wave back and this one guy almost hit us trying to tell us to not stick half of our bodies out the window, and he swerved really close to the van, when we were barreling down the highway. But everyone survived, thankfully. Ok now I actually have to go take a shower.

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IM (The Teenage World)

The whole teenage world revolves around IM's. People sometimes get asked out on IM. People explain how they feel on IM. People get in fights on IM. People are asked to go "to the bathroom" so they can get asked out. HEHE Seb, you know what I'm talking about it. I can definitely give plenty of examples for each. I can't give an example for the asking out one which is good, because it is definitely to say that in person, because asking someone out on IM, just says your afraid to say it to his or her face, and if you are uncomfortable doing that then you probably won't have a good relationship with each other. I think that life would be simpler if you didn't have the internet all together. I mean it's not the only way of getting in touch, like the telephone, or a letter. It's so weird but cool to think that people used to send letters to say hey how's life, let's meet for lunch, or to do something, and would talk about their feelings all through a piece of paper sent miles to someone and then vice versa. It would be SO cool to still do that, and not have internet for like a week and no phones either, and see how it is. I wish that we still used mail as a way to explain feelings to each other, and to speak our mids through a piece of paper. I never get mail, except Sports Illustrated which I don't think I get anymore, HEHE. I'm so not girl-ish. Well I do read Seventeen when I can get my hands on it. Or People. I like People. I should try and get a subscription to that. I like to hear gossip about all the celebrities. Actually to think about it, it would be horrible if your life was intruded by some stranger, paparazzi person, and then plastered on bill boards and magazines and in newspapers around the countries. Imagine YOUR life and then think about how people would see you if they knew everything about you? I would hate that. More than anyone can know. WOW that was an epic tyrade. URG my mom and dad just got in ANOTHER fight. And I think my mom is about to storm in saying, "GO TO BED NOW!!!". So I should probably act like a good daughter and beat her to the punch.

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COMMENT!!! PLEEZ

Evil Glares

When Kate and I got into science, we were fairly late, and we were talking about that there were no seats over where we usually sit, and so Kate had to go to like the front or something, and I swear her evil glare burned through my head. And then Chris wouldn't stop talking, so she kept looking at him, and she said, "DO I LOOK HAPPY?" and I was like, "Umm no" like really high pitched, but really quietly. And then Peter, Em, and I didn't do the right subject for that project where we go up to the board, and read stuff about a subject and write stuff on the board. We did the completely wrong thing, so that was pretty embarrassing. HAHA. And I feel sick, and like everybody in the class is coughing and sounds really really sick. Including me. I am really sniffly and it may be just be my allergies but I usually just get itchy eyes, and itchy throat. I forgot to finish this post so I am at home now after my game. We lost it, so we don't get a banner. :( We won every single game except that one. ARG. And Coach O (ms. ostermueller, if that is how you spell it) poured a whole water bottle on me, and she put me in a headlock, so I couldn't get away, it was actually really awkward. And I kind of want to play next year, and I kind of don't. Because I love tennis, but I love softball too. And I don't know what to switch to, comment on this giving advice on what I should do next year. Shower, I gtg.

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I'm not doing time at all anymore. haha

My Life So Far

My life this year has been, okay, except for a few big up and downs. It seems like it just takes time to mend all wounds, like I thought I would always and forever like Ave, but I have gotten over him, and it will probably just take time to get over Dan. And no offense Dan, but your just one guy, in 7th grade, and they will be better guys and worse guys and I will have to deal. I will have to deal with all the dicks, and all the stud-muffins, (haha i love that word), who break my heart. Hopefully not alot will. I just wish things had worked out, but I guess if Dan thinks it was for the best then I guess it was. I should just stop talking about it. So.......all you guys.......if you are ever talking to any boys who are single and I come up, (don't just bring me up randomly, unless they ask you who they should like) say good stuff about me. Okay? Thankyou. I think this summer is going to be fun. I am totally having a pool party, and all you guys are invited to a coolio pool party, except Ave who apparently likes his camp more than he likes to stay here so he will be away at a boring camp while we have fun in a pool. MUAHAHAHA!! So.........what else am I doing this summer? Hmmmm......oh yah Chris and Peter might come to Nike Tennis Camp at Amherst at the same time Kate and I are. That would be fun, except sometimes Peter can be really annoying. I am doing a mountain biking camp, a GFA tennis camp, a hockey camp, and that's all I can think of right now. I am having writers block I'll post later if anything comes up.

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Summer Plans Failed

Dan and I are not going to go out during the summer. He said that the more he thinks about it the more he doesn't want a GF. I asked why, and he said because the previous GF's he had didn't work and ended with a fight. And I asked him who were his last GF's and he said Lucy, and Lauren, and I asked him if he thinks I am like them. He said no, and so I said, "So you don't want to even try?" and he said well it's just that the other GF's just didn't work because he didn't want a GF. I am REALLY sad, and I really wish things had worked out, and it's really bad that this happened during exam week because now I won't be able to concentrate at all because I am so sad. I really wanted to go out with him, and at least I really wanted to try to make it work but I guess everything was just too good to be true. Everything always seems that way in my life. Like everything was fine before Ave said he was deciding between us. And then after that everything did not go my way at all, and everything before that seemed to good to be true. Then everything seemed alright, when I was forgetting about Ave, and I liked Charlie, and everything seemed okay, he told Em who told me, that he didn't like me at all, but not like that, in a nicer way. And now I was so ecstatic about going out with Dan because I liked him SO much, and I'm sorry if that makes you feel bad Dan but it's how I feel, and I liked him SO much, and I was so happy about going out with him, and now we aren't even going to try. And everything seemed to good to be true, and now it's not true. I just keep wishing that this shit hadn't happened to me ALL year long. It really sucks. ALOT. I know I might sounds like a broken record, but nothing seemed to go right with the guys I liked this year, and I felt like things were going REALLY well with Dan, and now he's not even like talking to me. I know it might be a little awkward, but I still don't really understand why he doesn't want a girlfriend. I just like him SO much, and I wish things had gone smoothly and had not torn my heart into pieces like Ave did. Don't feel bad Ave I'm completely over you. I am just really sad, and annoyed not at you Dan, just that this had to happen during review week, because now I will probably be sad all week, and don't feel bad because I would have rather you tell me sooner than later it's just the timing was awful. Ohh God I am starting to cry and I can't because I am waiting for my piano lesson, and now everybody is looking at me. FRICKING FRICK. MOTHER FRICKING, FRICK, I HATE MY LIFE RIGHT NOW. I wish everything was different, I hope everything will get better over the summer. But I doubt it will. There is only the tad of hope that is left for me to cling on to.

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4:29:35 PM

Before School

I am up at 6 when I could be asleep for another half an hour. My dad put on the house alarm last night, and he forgot to turn it off, and opened a door, so at 5:30 in the morning I woke up to the screeching noise of an alarm. And my dad couldn't figure how to turn it off for like 5 minutes, and with this alarm on you can barely hear your self speak. So after that I realized I felt really sick. Probably because I ate Ice Cream, Popcorn, then food from the Little Kitchen, the Chinese place, last night. So here's the situation with me and Dan, he and Sarah are "engaged" on facebook, and I felt a little worried, because I know what Sarah will do, and she made out with a guy that her best friend liked, who she knew liked, just because she was mad at her friend, so I was just I don't know worried about that. And if it was with anyone else I wouldn't really care, but with Sarah I don't know it's hard to explain. And I didn't tell Dan because I know we aren't actually going out yet, and I didn't want him to think I was overreacting, so Allison was talking to him about it, and she said to me, that she asked Dan if he liked me or not, and he said, I don't know people really want me to. And I wrote in his IM box, is that all he said, accidentally, and then said oops wrong box, but then he was like ohh, then said lies, and he meant that I was lying, and I said well I'll tell you the truth, and I told him I was talking to allison about what he said, and then he said that he never said that, but the convo allison gave me had like the time stamp, and he said well that's not cool, and said you lied to me chloe, and I didn't know if he was joking or being serious so I asked him and he said he was surprised more than angry. I just think that I shouldn't be worrying and I shouldn't have been worrying about it because I know, or at least I hope he would tell me, if he didn't like me. But I still am worrying. I just think this is stupid, and it was wrong of me to ask allison, and I should just trust Dan, because I definitely know he is trustworthy. And I don't need to ruin the relationship before it even starts. That would be horrible. I'm so stupid.

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6:18:52 PM

Late Night?

Now after my concert is over I actually have nothing to do. And the house is quiet for once, because my mom isn't here so there is no one to fight with because I like my dad more than my mom. My mom is out at a concert with her mom, wow how embarrassing. And it's a concert of this oldie called Tony Bennet. But it means that I won't have to deal with her tonight, and also won't have to deal with fighting with her in the morning. Thank God. And my dad is nicer and so he won't care if I stay up late tonight as much as my mom. So someone better stay up late with me!!! Or everyone will DIE!!! HAHA jk jk. But so everything is cleared up with Dan about the Sarah thing and he won his baseball game 9-5!! WOO HOO good job. Yah I can't wait until school is over. Mainly because of going out with Dan, but also because school is going to be over. And what normal kid wouldn't want that. Like sometimes I like going to school. But only for the social aspect not for the school aspect. I am watching America's Next Top Model and there is this girl, Adrianne, who when she said I was so excited, she says it like she was talking about watching paint dry. I hate listening to her, it sounds like she is stoned, and talks really slowly. And also everybody goes to Paris, and in their room they only have 3 beds for 4 people and one bathroom. And I think everybody knows how models get when they have to actually share something. HAHA. That's how my mom is. OMG they are making a movie of Hairspray, that musical!!! AHH I loved that musical. Nothing else to talk about except someone better stay up with me!!! OR ELSE!!! hehe.

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5:16:13 PM

Jam Packed

My day is so full. I had to wake up at like 8:30 to have a tutor, where he just asks me what my homework is in great detail and then watches me do it. And now I am waiting for Em, and Peter to come over to do the stupid science project. And we don't even need to meet, we are almost done already, stupid parents making plans without asking. My parents are in ANOTHER fight. It is soo stupid, they fight over stupid little things like where they want to go to dinner, and why do we always go there? And then after the fights my mom always gets mad at me for the littlest things. ARG!! I don't like my parents. And at 2:30 I have to go to a GBYO concert. I'm going to go swimming now!!

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1:16:28 PM

New AGAIN!!! ARG

I had to make a new one because my other one wouldn't let me in. ARGG and that was really annoying.